I miss you Lydia

My sweet Lydia Rose,

    How Mommy misses you.  I can't believe that it has been almost four and an half years since I last held you, kissed you, smelled you, saw you, and heard your sweet cries.  So much has happened since this last post.  We've moved!!!!  Again!!!  :)  You're a big sister again too.  Even though Jedidiah (and now Nehemiah) will never get to see you while here they are told all about you.  Jedidiah says your name so well and knows that you are in Heaven.  He points up.  :)  Baby, Daddy and Mommy miss and love you so very much.  <3 

My Dearest Lydia,

    How Mommy misses you.  I think about you all the time.  Especially since your baby brother joined our family.  Jedidiah Samuel born on October 15th, 2011 at 2:35 P.M.  He weighed 10 pounds 5 ounces and was 21.5 inches long.  From the moment that I started going into labor it was the hardest emotional battle ever.  I remembered going into labor with you and all the "flashbacks" hit me.  I knew that I had to overcome my emotions for the better of Jedidiah and myself.  Once I saw him I realized how much he looked like you and I sat there for about two minutes just staring and then the tears flowed.  I got through the labor and now I could shed tears of joy and sorrow.  I still get so scared when he is sleeping.  I often find myself nudging him just to make sure that he is still breathing.  I miss you so badly.  I know that you are so happy in Heaven but I really miss you. 

Love Always,
Mommy

Wow baby I can't believe that you're two years old already.  Mommy is so thankful for the strength that God gave me during that joyous yet grievous time.  I cried tears for me and was so happy for you.  I needed to be strong for Jedaiah.  You're going to be a big sister again in October.  I know that you are having such a wonderful time with Baby McRae that went Home on December 15, 2010.  Daddy and Mommy miss you so badly.  You know that Baby McRae's due date was on your birthday.  So, I cried for both of you.  I can't wait for our joyous reunion in Heaven.  Love you both so much.

Happy crowning day

Lydia has been in Heaven one year

Happy 1st birthday and crowning day baby

Baby we all miss and love you so very much.  I really don't want to cry this early in the morning.  I love you.

Father's Day From Above

Daddy,

I can't get you anything for the first Father's Day since my birth and crowning. I hope this poem will do. I don't think you'll ever understand just how much I love you. You're a wonderful father and not to just me but also to my brothers and sister. I really can't wait until we are all together again. I love you, daddy.
Love Always,
Lydia

A little while, and ye shall not see me: and again, a little while, and ye shall see me, because I go to the Father.
John 16:16
Happy Father's Day Daddy From Above
Daddy I love you so much
I watch you all the time up here
I see how much you miss me
Daddy, please just know I'm always near
Daddy, please don't cry today
You'll make me so sad
Today is Father's day
And you should be glad
You loved me from the very beginning
I could tell that too
The way you gently talked to me
In everything that you'd do
I'm so thankful for what mommy and you did
You gave me life and a short while later gave me back to God
I didn't want to leave you, daddy
But I knew what I had to do so through the Pearly Gates I trod
Please be strong for mommy
She's still have a really hard time
We'll be together again soon
Just all in due time
Don't blame yourself, daddy
There was nothing you could do
I'm so happy here in Heaven
And one day mommy and you will too
So when you see purple (Lydia), think of me
So when you see a Rose, think of me
This way no matter where you are
There I'll always be

Love, Lydia Rose


This is the poem that I wrote for my hubby for Father's Day. I put her pictures all around it and put it in a picture frame. He really liked it. I don't profess to be a poet but he said it was really good. I cried the entire time writing it. For Father's Day it was all about daddy. We fished like the entire day. He had a blast. Thank the Lod for the fun-filled day.

A Poem from Lydia's great grandmother

SAVING YOU A PLACE

For almost nine months, I lived with my Mom and Dad...

My home was just below my Mom's heart, I shared all the love they had...

So many times, I felt all their hands as I moved about...

As they felt me turn an move, so happy they would shout...

Little hands and small voices, could it possibly be?

Two big brothers and a sister, waiting for me...

As I slept, Mothers hands were always there...

So busy was she, but always time to share...

As Mother worked...she was so protective of me...

She watched me grow, a better Mom you'll never see!

They made me a place to share their world...

Never mattered who I'd turn out to be...even another girl!

Then the time to join my happy parents you see...

Of all the hugs and kisses...just for me!

As I opened my eyes and gave them a smile, I felt like a Princess for awhile.

Hours were passing too quickly, as I heard a voice...

My Heavenly Father was calling...I knew I had no choice...

God needs an ANGEL and I must do my share...

A home for my family...I must also prepare...

Mom and Dad, my final journey came so soon...

Jesus was busy preparing me room...

When it was time...I had to go...I could not stay...

OH!  How you all tugged at my heart, as God prepared my way...

He promised we would all be together and share a Heavenly home...

The beauty of our place...will make all of you want to come...

So please don't cry...and never be sad!

I am with our Saviour, Mom!  He is so glad!

He will always hold my hand and hug me tight...

Watch over me, Dad, both day and night...

The greatest substitute, for my Mother and Dad...

You'll see one day our beautiful home...the prettiest we ever had!

I'll never be sick, and never be alone,

So when you are ready, I'll show you our home...

I must be at my angel work, and wait patiently for

you all as you finish your earthly chores...

When we together will discover the happiness, God has for us in store...

OH!  Mom and Dad...I love my name...

Lydia Rose, in Heaven is the same...

As you look up... You'll see me smile...

For I'm sure you'll all join me...after awhile...

I love you all so, Lydia Rose

By Lydia Rose's

Great-Grandmother Helen

19 December 2009

I thought this was such a pretty poem and it really means a lot to me.  However, it makes me cry while reading it and even more so when typing it. 

Thanks Grandma for the beautiful poem.