My Dearest Lydia,

    How Mommy misses you.  I think about you all the time.  Especially since your baby brother joined our family.  Jedidiah Samuel born on October 15th, 2011 at 2:35 P.M.  He weighed 10 pounds 5 ounces and was 21.5 inches long.  From the moment that I started going into labor it was the hardest emotional battle ever.  I remembered going into labor with you and all the "flashbacks" hit me.  I knew that I had to overcome my emotions for the better of Jedidiah and myself.  Once I saw him I realized how much he looked like you and I sat there for about two minutes just staring and then the tears flowed.  I got through the labor and now I could shed tears of joy and sorrow.  I still get so scared when he is sleeping.  I often find myself nudging him just to make sure that he is still breathing.  I miss you so badly.  I know that you are so happy in Heaven but I really miss you. 

Love Always,
Mommy