Mommy and Daddy are moving

We are moving to another home.  I'm getting ready to pack up all the things that I've bought for.  I can't part with it.  It's the only thing(s) that I was able to buy for you other than your casket and beautiful dress in which we laid you to rest in.  It pains me so bad to know EVERYDAY that you should (in my eyes) be here but that you're not.  In some ways it seems like just yesterday but in others it seems so far away.  I sometimes think you were a dream because I was SOOO happy and then boom the happiness went away.  I am so grateful to have held you for those four hours without knowing that you weren't going to make it because it made those moments so such more pleasurable.  I am so excited togo hoe to be with you and I know that one day I will.  Just when it's the Lords will.  I love you so much Lydia Rose and you are always in our hearts. 

What would it be like if you were here?

I can't help but often wonder what it would be like if God had plans for you to be here with daddy, mommy, your two brothers, and sister.  I know that I would be so happy and thanful.  Every though his plans for you were different I still am so thankful for the short time that I was able to hold and kiss you.  I am also thankful for the security I have with where you are and that we WILL be reunited.  Sometimes it just doesn't make sense. You were so healthy and nothing ever showed up.  I just have to keep telling myself that it was all the good Lord's will.  I'm just doing my best to try to raise your brothers and sister right.  So that we may ALL be reunited in Heaven one glorious day.