My Dearest Lydia,

    How Mommy misses you.  I think about you all the time.  Especially since your baby brother joined our family.  Jedidiah Samuel born on October 15th, 2011 at 2:35 P.M.  He weighed 10 pounds 5 ounces and was 21.5 inches long.  From the moment that I started going into labor it was the hardest emotional battle ever.  I remembered going into labor with you and all the "flashbacks" hit me.  I knew that I had to overcome my emotions for the better of Jedidiah and myself.  Once I saw him I realized how much he looked like you and I sat there for about two minutes just staring and then the tears flowed.  I got through the labor and now I could shed tears of joy and sorrow.  I still get so scared when he is sleeping.  I often find myself nudging him just to make sure that he is still breathing.  I miss you so badly.  I know that you are so happy in Heaven but I really miss you. 

Love Always,
Mommy

Wow baby I can't believe that you're two years old already.  Mommy is so thankful for the strength that God gave me during that joyous yet grievous time.  I cried tears for me and was so happy for you.  I needed to be strong for Jedaiah.  You're going to be a big sister again in October.  I know that you are having such a wonderful time with Baby McRae that went Home on December 15, 2010.  Daddy and Mommy miss you so badly.  You know that Baby McRae's due date was on your birthday.  So, I cried for both of you.  I can't wait for our joyous reunion in Heaven.  Love you both so much.