We love you Baby

It's hard to believe that it's already been 7 weeks.  I just keep telling myself that I'm 7 weeks closer to being with you.  I know that I can't change things and you wouldn't want to come here.  However, if I could change things I would give anything to have you back.  You are brought up everyday and all of our earthly children know who you are and where you are.  This will be taught to everyone of our children.  Everytime that we pray, whether in the car, over food, or our regular praying we tell you that we love and miss you.  I know that I don't have to write this because you know my every thought but it helps me to write my thoughts down.  Plus, I didn't get to do much for you while you were here I want to make sure that I do my best to keep your memory alive.  If no one else remembers you at least your daddy, mommy, and ALL your siblings will FOREVER remember you.  We miss you so bady.

My heart is happy for her

As hard as it is for me to say that I am happy for my daughter...I am. She is in Heaven and it's greedy for me to "wish her back." Not only is it greedy but it will never happen. My daughter will always be in our hearts and thoughts but I will not be able to see her again until reunited in Heaven or the end of time. I really wish, formy "selifish" self that this wasn't the way that things worked out but it is what God had planned and he knows what is best for all of us. I love and miss you dearly Lydia Rose. May you continue to help mommy to not be so sad all the time. As you no longer need your mommy but your brothers and sister do. Until we are reunited in Heaven (and what a glorious day that will be) my heart will love for your smell, sound, touch, face, etc. I love you, my sleeping beauty. :)